Epiphany

Ugh. I can't sleep. I think part of it is an epiphany I had in the cab. I will explain.

As most of my regular readers know, I used to be a lawyer. It was a thoroughly rotten experience. And whether it should have or not, it scarred me. D said, "I don't know why it had such an impact on you," but it did.

Am I highly sensitive? Yes
Am I sometimes a drama queen? Yes

Those things acknowledged, I still wouldn't wish my legal experience on anyone. It was truly awful.

And I remember when D and I started dating, and it was still a long-distance relationship. He would come up to Newton, MA to see me and I would come to Manhattan to see him. I remember riding on the bus and how excited I felt to see the buildings rushing by.

And the law thing soured me for a while. But I feel like the bitterness of it is falling away. There are all these new yoga possibilities this month and once again I feel like the city is infused with hope and excitement.

I love it.

Comments

Lora said…
So glad that you are moving on that experience. I tend to think I would hate it too.
7:00 AM
verniciousknids said…
It's interesting how you've moved onto something the complete opposite of the legal profession...good luck with all those "exciting possiblities".
8:12 AM
Bearette said…
Lora - Thank you :)

V - Thanks! My father-in-law said the same thing, that yoga teaching is the exact opposite of law.
10:00 AM
SK said…
I'm glad you are finally letting go of that too... it's no fun to carry around all that dead weight with you especially when in a great city! Focusing on your new prospects and memories of your excitement at the onset of your relationship seem to help a great bit! I'll have to keep that in mind if it ever happens to me.
12:29 PM
Anonymous said…
Some people never find the courage or means to make a change. It's awesome that you did.

When I left social work I felt like I had failed in a major way-- like how could I not have realized that it wasn't the right profession for me? But I don't feel that way anymore. :)
2:24 PM
Bearette said…
Thanks guys!

Liz - I know exactly what you mean. It feels like a reflection on you (one), but it's not!
3:49 PM
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