So I had my doctor's appointment today. Gained 2 lbs...ugh...but I did go to the doctor's office right after breakfast, and I lost 1 lb last time, so whatever. I got one of the other doctors in the practice. I'm still at 4 cm, but she seemed to find this impressive. "A lot of people go through 3 or more hours of labor to get where you are," she told me, "so it should be faster than average." She seconded my doctor's advice to get to the hospital quickly.
I am starting to get nervous about his weight. This doctor doesn't like to give weight estimates because she feels they are off by 10-20%, but she did say he would be a big baby. "So am I gonna have to get a C-section?" I asked. She gave me a nuanced answer that boiled down to, "We try to avoid that," but said I probably shouldn't go past my due date. Gah. So of course I started thinking, "Am I going to have to induce?" Then she said, "So when you see ___ next week, if you're still pregnant, you can talk about it."
It's entirely possible that my own doctor will think it's okay to go past my due date, so we'll see. (Due to a scheduling snafu -- they had to cancel my June 6 appointment -- I'm seeing my own doctor on Monday.) I am hoping he will start naturally and not be too huge...neither induction nor a C-section sounds enormously appealing to me. Also, I had a sensation that may or may not have been a Braxton Hicks contraction yesterday. I'm kind of hoping that things start out with my water breaking...a clear, unambiguous signal. I'm also hoping I don't burst blood vessels in my face and eyes from pushing, as a friend of mine did.
The frustrating thing is, the doctors all seem to agree that it will be fast...when it starts. But nobody can say when it starts. If there's anything pregnancy teaches you, it's that you have no control over the process (and that most people are tactless...the Borders cashier today asked if I was having twins, and when I said no, she said, "That is scary!" Thanks, %*#@!*. And I only remembered Kitkat's suggested response after I left the store. I'm hoping she's right about the Heidi Klum thing.)
And I'm aware that I need an attitude adjustment...I'm letting the "twins" people make me too cranky. So I had a brownie with walnuts today. And it did help.